"Grandma Duties" in Paradise

Hi, if you are reading i just wanted to share that my 大姨 was called home to God on 13/10 night. My family was attending to her funeral matters and her body was cremated on 17/10. 

My 大姨 was suffering a lot physically but managed to hold on by God's grace to see her son who returned from overseas and all her grandchildren who visited that night. I thankful that God sustained her. 😬

During the wake, my extended family worked hard to let everyone who had shared a part my 大姨's life/ came for the funeral to remember her and give thanks for the life she lived.

We also managed to put together a video in remembrance of her. If you have some time and like to, you can click on the link to watch the video.

 https://drive.google.com/file/d/1YgcSI2Rx1EhEDGb5rPv3Oss6PZbEqqGb/view?usp=sharing

May I ask that you keep my family in prayer please? A lot of our lives were planned around caring and being with my 大姨。Now that she is no longer physically present with us, I think there is a void that is very significant especially to my aunt, my mum and my 大姨's immediate family. Thank you for keeping us in prayer. 

For the first time

For the first time I thought about getting someone to pose as my other half so that I can let a 长辈安心。

For the first time I feel I'm gonna just 豁出去 and don't care about my 面子. Had the the idea to just 公开寻找 whoever can help me with the above because I am pretty sure I have friends who won't mind helping me for the cause.

Crazy isn't it.

My thoughts have been wild because things have been so hard to bear.

For the first time I had someone broke down so badly in front of me. 

For the first time I had to hear such heartbreaking news in a family conference. 

For the first time I talked to a doctor from the palliative care department.

For a first time I found it so hard to reply the message: hope she recovers soon.

God, I know You are gracious and merciful.

Help us please...