one of the many thanksgiving of 2014

thank God for the Sunday school class which i had an opportunity to teach this year.

it's somehow amazingly through teaching that i managed to forge a special relationship with them :)

i won't be able to follow them through next year sadly.

but i am surely excited to see these young ones in church slowly rising up to serve and love Him more.

more thanksgiving posts coming up!

(but i'm really really busy- what's new hahaha.. give me some time yea! maybe by next year ;))

when you don't feel strength to carry on..

Can i resign?
Really tired from everything..

Just on the change in colleagues, I've mentioned it so many times that I can explained it clearly anymore.
It's about a dozen now?

My co-partner currently...
Is just unable to perform and the load just falls on me.

Dear Lord,
I am tired. I am disheartened. I am sad. I am losing it. How can I stand firm as a Christian in the workplace? Is it really Your will for me to continue the bond?

It's weird how I chanced upon this dialect song. It's got to be God who knows I need it.

Hold on to me, Lord..

Help me know that "Because You live, I can face tomorrow" (literally).

stressed

Why can nobody feel my stress? :(

It really takes me a lot to give my time to whatever I decide to give my time to.

Please don't take it "for granted".



Sad :/

end of concert

At the end of concert, I can only give thanks.

Thank You God, for making it turn out kind of well. Chaos at backstage..accidents, vomiting, poop, rowdy children, etc...

all over by God's grace.

I'm so so sleepy now. let me keep it short for now. I'm so proud of my N1s in their animal boogie item today. Everyone was smiling. They were happy and enjoying. Ahhhh as I type this I also wanna cry.

This wasn't the case for other items for the class. The children were super grumpy and unhappy. Can I take this as an assurance that my hard work and rapport built with children has paid off? :)

The finale item when everyone gathers was a disaster too. Never in my life was it this bad in 4 years... but, I really take heart in my well-behaved N1 children who were sitting down and so good. Oh man as I type I wanna cry again hehe..

In the agonisingly long "finale" item.. my children, the youngest, saw their parents, just like the others. But neither did they scream or shout or yell or stand or walk around or play with the mic when the older ones were. They simply sat down and waited. At least for a significantly long period of time until they "couldn't resist" anymore.

I don't know how to explain it but I'm just so proud of them. Really really proud and happy and thankful for my children and the 2 above-mentioned points. Everything else was very bad, but I really really really just like to give thanks for the 2 particular thing and yes, also for the boy who changed into his costume. :)

Good night! Zzzz #proudteacher #exhaustedteachertoo

心灰意冷

Upset. With the happenings at the workplace. With myself. It's so hard.. why, God, why? Am I placed in that place? Why?? I can't do it anymore. I can't pull through 2 more years. Is it Your will for me to stay? Or leave? I cannot let "the simplest part of my life" affect me now. But it is.. 我, 心灰意冷了。

thankful

Just received a msg from my cousin:

"Hey xin pei, for my upcmg trip to central asia, can i ask u to be my prayer intercessor? Would like t send u my team's prayer newsletter & updates even as we are there. :) "

I don't know how to explain this. But there was this immerse joy! It's really my pleasure and delight to be praying with my cousin! Probably this is another "leap" into the "role" I play in the family that's why! :)