Wednesday 27 September 2017

Tough times, tough man - correlation?

I won't consider myself as tough,
Neither am I a man (hehe I had to say it :p)
But I know very well that it's by God's grace I've been pulling through...

It's so tough! Or so I say tiring, messy and frustrating?
Hmmm.
Everyday we experience being shorthanded.
The difference is being a little shorthanded or extremely shorthanded?

I really don't want to say this but..
Are we really capable of handing so many children?
Or is the focus just on filling the vacancies whether it's manageable for us or not?

I can't find motivation to go to work :(
There's little satisfaction in the work but it's more of a "phew/yes, another chaotic morning is over. Tomorrow will be another of such a day."

In the afternoon it'll be: "later you go where where where then this class that class split the children, one tch go out, the rest take __ children each.."

And the night before the next day: "can you ot? Or so and so will take someone's shift because she's on leave/mc so this carries forward to... The schedule for tomorrow will be...."

Tough times right?..

I'm gonna start another tough day now. Shall write another time.

Dear God please give me strength!

Thursday 21 September 2017

:(

Weird how my lovely sisters in Christ just quite recently told me that when i talk i should share my 委屈 and not keep things to myself.. and they tell me not to filter too much when talking cause it dilutes the actual meaning... and today... my superior said the way I talk is blunt and hurtful. Yes I did make a mistake. But aren't you responsible as well? You asked me to explain and then you ask me to stop giving you that reason which I've been trying to explain and you don't get it..

Such a stark difference and oh man.. tell me about being an alien in this world and how hard it is....😢

But still I know i need to be thankful to God for colleagues on my side. So tough... the struggles...

S.o. h.a.r.d. 😭