Random thoughts hehe

I think that..

It's so so nice to see God's children who journey with Him ever so closely.
His blessings are also so so super evident in their lives that their lives simply proclaim how great is this God whom they believe in!

Am I like that too?

Does my life reflect Christ?

(and i got all these thoughts from browsing social media, looking at the photo journal of blessed people. Sometimes I'm really amazed with myself by how much I can think about just seemingly random things hehehe..) 😊

so hard.

dislike myself for being so weak. :/
supposed to be happily packing and then i received a super duper unkind text from my colleague and now my mood is (cry face)

the irony is that she was the one who knew i stayed back to complete my work/ prepare in advance for someone to cover me. and she had to send me such a text!

and a while later..
then i managed to find someone to help me out and i thought about the people whom i know they will be on my side..
and i experienced the warmth in people (particularly one person first) once again,
that brought a little bit of comfort but still..
why am i so weak.
:(

this is just like my not-nice-at-all experience on my last day of work.
and going through the unpleasant later allowed me to experience something so nice and warm.
is it for the contrast?
hmmm.

i asked God many times- why do i have to go through the bad so i can also see the good?

my "answer": God if i have to go through all the bad things to see the good, i will. (<- well, now i can say this for my last lap of work's bad bad experiences that has passed)

but for now..
oh man.. it's so tough.

what am i so weak :(

tGif!

I think I've never used this expression myself!
But today is truly tGif! :)

Such a relief that the work week is over and the Lord has graciously brought me through.

So, in this period, the staff are told to clear their leaves. But, there are no arrangements for teachers to be absent.. And everyday is just, 乱, 烦, repeat.

In the class that I'm temporarily taking, the symphony of cries is.... I would say, saddening. The poor children have no one to be attached to and i feel so helpless being unable to attend to them individually too as I have to 顾大局 being the only teacher.

This week I took the pg class for 3 days and n1 class for 2 days. They call this "language days", which means the teachers do not take turns to enter the class for lesson each day, but she takes the class for the whole day and the children at exposed to the language (either English or Chinese) the whole day, incld the routine time. Though this is the school's selling point, I don't exactly agree with this, sadly. And it makes it so hard to bring potential parents around for centre enquiry! It's like trying to convince them on something I don't believe in :(

Anw.. So my first 3 days were terriblest. Probably the worst I've experienced though I really enjoyed taking pg. The next 2 days, one was peaceful and good (because the lessons went well and children and all) and the other one (today) i can only be thankful because I took so many 3 year olds (18! >.<) at once but they were all relatively good. So I am certain the Lord made them so! Though I really also wanna give myself a pat on the back for good classroom management. It's not entirely the children's "credit" you know:p Ok, I know, it's God credit :")

Now I'm just happy it's tGif and i have some time with myself (to compose this too) before attending prayer meeting. It'll be a packed weekend! But I can do it! Jia you! :)