I heard this phrase not once, not twice, but many many times.
But often, such phrases don't sync in until you really feel it.
it has been an emotional week..
a week which everything and everyone reminds you in the most direct manner to reminiscence, to give thanks..
a week of listing the many things that did not happen by a snap of your fingers, but how these things came about through the hard work of a leader and his team members.
a week which you can't really put together your emotions although there may be joyous things that happened in between..
I have a family, a home, a church, a country I belong to all accredited to our gracious Father.
He raised and used a man to propel the progressions in our homeland.
We have a peaceful nation to call our own with racial and religious freedom because of what the late PM Lee did.
And all of these happened because it was God's plan for Singapore to grow in such a way.
I made a trip to the community tribute site and wrote my little insignificant message to our founding Father this morning.
The volunteer there suggested that I take a photo of the message to remember it..
I obliged, but i guess it was more of to show my children next time on how we witnessed the passing of a great man in this generation..
"Don't take things for granted."
Was part of what C shared during the memorial service of lil Anna.We didn't even get to see Anna..
We've been seeing C for 2 consecutive Sats already because he dropped by to visit baby Charlotte.
I have no idea the emotions that go through his mind..
And that soon we'll be celebrating the 1st birthday of Isabelle and Charlotte's full month..
Dear God, help!!
Not forgetting that my dearest aunt's birthday is on 1 Apr and we were thinking of a surprise celebration the day before...
But one of the contemplation now is..
要以怎么样的心情庆祝呢？
Remember the review in 6 months' time which I mentioned?
You know what, it was a blunder.
That review is the post op review to see if the wound is recovering well after the major surgery to remove my aunt's bladder.
The review to monitor if the cancer cells have spread again is in 2 months' time.
And as of the last review on Tues, the doctor said that the cancer will definitely come back.
"3 months/ 6 months/ 9 months/ a year it'll come back."
What a way to put it across..
And how should we be reacting to this piece of news?
How would the f. p. look like next year?
I feel that a part of me is running away.
How to cope?
Plus the irritating working place saga..
Plus the head teacher leaving..
Plus the other reliable tch leaving..
It's like it took me great pains and time to build the relationship and now...
I'm 1.5 years to my ORD aka end of my bond..
And the same colleagues like to ask me how would I feel..
Of course I am happy for them to move on to a happier workplace!
But I don't know if I can pull through this..
I'm quite mentally drained and demoralized..
I don't know if I'm partially affected by my physically unwell state but I don't quite feel like talking..
But there are things to be done...
I should be updating this space more often.
Hope I don't become...
Everything around seems so depressing...
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