baby shower

Please meet baby Charlotte!

Yesterday, I had the opportunity to carry a 3 day old baby for the first time.

Things, however, are not as easy as they seem.

It is the time that we celebrate.

It is also the time of mixed feelings.

And a time to especially ask for God's grace and mercy upon the family.

Remember C? About a year ago, we celebrated the birth of his daughter who is now reunited with the Lord.

It was a tough period for all of us, especially C and his family.

There was questioning and weeping and mourning and challenges to stand firm in the Lord.

There was also revelation and lessons learnt and submission before our Lord.

Baby Charlotte is C's niece.

As the family and the extended family rejoices, we also remember dear baby Anna Jane who brought us so much love and joy in her 15 days with us.

We know baby Anna is in the best place.

But we as mere humans we are all so weak and we need the Lord's mercy so so much.

In the same hospital we said our goodbye, we said hello.

It's so tough.

Last year, when my other cousin gave birth to her daughter (in the same period), we did such a bad job of extending our care to her.

This year, now,

I can only imagine Anna's parents' hurt as they revisit the memory that is still so vivid in our minds.

Lord, please enlighten us on this please.

We need You to help us in this and lead us through with Your perspective, not ours, Lord.

And you know something, I have a love-hate relationship with social media.

It's so efficient.

BUT

It is so insensitive.

Coincidences too.

Another tough thing we have to handle.

I know that they are there for a reason, surely.

But why?

My aunt has ended her cycles of chemo and doc reviews for now.

Her next review with the doctor is 6 months later.

How about Your review on us, dear Lord,

What prescription and advice do You have for us in this time?

How can we align ourselves to Your Will and to be used by You?

Dear Lord, 

You are the Lord of the sunshine,

The Lord of the rain.

You're the Lord of the good times,

The Lord of the pain.

You're the Lord of the mountains,

The Lord of the seas.

You're the Lord of the music,

The Lord of the children,

The Lord of you and me.

Would you please, Lord, bring the family together?

Help us to be strongly rooted in You and trust Your sovereign plans which we may not see now,

or may not ever see it at all..

But teach us Lord to have a heart that is willing to be led by You,

used by You,

and one that brings glory to Your Name.

In Jesus' name,

Amen.