overwhelming..

Remember I mentioned about mylc and how I was reminded of..

-unconditional love
-unlimited care
-unflinching commitment

which I'll like to put into perspective by applying on the children I work with..

Well, there's this other part I took away.. Which was a part of what chang yao chuan dao prayed for me. But... to keep the story short, I forgot about the word that he used which really spoke to me. Okay la, we had group sharing on this and probably because I'm too attentive to others I forgot abt my "word". Hehehe.. The impression I had of it was something about don't be "stubborn".. but I simply cannot remember the exact word until recently, it came back!!

The word is "grumble" :')

The point is, it's really hard. Hard not to question (okay, maybe "grumble") the circumstances, the people, the methodology of things, the logic, the workplace. It's really tough. Tougher than overcooked meat..

I find myself being unwilling to talk to big people. I find myself being frustrated. I find myself feeling so alone. I find myself wanting to shun away. Today, I found myself counting down to the end of my work shift in an attempt to find motivation to continue working (I know you get what I mean) :)

Came home with a terrible headache.. literally and also figuratively. There are tremendous amount of things waiting for me to do.. how?? I'm so tired. It's definitely not the Monday blues I can assure you.

There's bible study class with xiao yi and da jiu and san jiu tomorrow evening. Which means time slot tomorrow is all fully booked. The subsequent days of the week too. Oh man. Overwhelming..

On a random note.. what are the odds that you just thought of random things a night before.. and the next morning someone posts abt it? It's like someone read your mind.. Is that a sign?