so hard.

dislike myself for being so weak. :/
supposed to be happily packing and then i received a super duper unkind text from my colleague and now my mood is (cry face)

the irony is that she was the one who knew i stayed back to complete my work/ prepare in advance for someone to cover me. and she had to send me such a text!

and a while later..
then i managed to find someone to help me out and i thought about the people whom i know they will be on my side..
and i experienced the warmth in people (particularly one person first) once again,
that brought a little bit of comfort but still..
why am i so weak.
:(

this is just like my not-nice-at-all experience on my last day of work.
and going through the unpleasant later allowed me to experience something so nice and warm.
is it for the contrast?
hmmm.

i asked God many times- why do i have to go through the bad so i can also see the good?

my "answer": God if i have to go through all the bad things to see the good, i will. (<- well, now i can say this for my last lap of work's bad bad experiences that has passed)

but for now..
oh man.. it's so tough.

what am i so weak :(