Rojak feelings

In the end, my departure wasn't formally announced..

Till today, I have parents messaging me upon "discovering" that I have left.

I really don't understand why things can't be ended on a better note.

If I'm in the management position..... Anyway..

Tonight the K2s are staying over in school. It's their K2 Overnight Camp. Something that I really struggled to decide whether I should "go through" this with them before I leave..

Photos of them are up on Facebook (as usual) and it doesn't feel good at all to see that I've been replaced esp by another teacher whose initials happen to be opposite of mine..

It must be my ego. But still this feeling is so tough. It's time to change my phone's wallpaper alr, I can't be making myself remember it all the time..

Anyway, can i say that i still secretly hope my absence is felt? I miss the children so much!!!

And I am feeling very bad to the children that I left the children on this note (without being able to tell them at all/say a proper goodbye). But I hope they (K2s at least) understood my difficult position..

Sighh..

Went for a trip rightaway after my last day of work (the children's concert) and now I finally am feeling my feelings (you get what I mean). But then again church camp is 2 days away!!

I wonder.. why did I put myself in such a "tight" situation.. but then again, could it be God's plan to help me in this transition too?

Dear Lord, please have mercy on me!

On a side note, today my mum and dad just very very nicely asked me to take a good good break and not look for a job yet. Even up till cny is good (my mum says even if I have no ang bao for her this year is no problem at all).

So much love. ♡

Once again only God knows I needed it!

Thankful as a whole even though the struggle is so real :')

Alright, back to preparing to serve as translater for Sunday and catching up on camp prog! 💪 God is with me!

The photo below shows the super thoughtful gifts my children and their parents (who knew about my departure through my supervisor's text the same week/ a day before my last day) blessed me with. They are way too sweet. They totally contribute to why I can count my blessings even though there may be others who are not as nice to me...

I'm a really blessed girl indeed:)