心灰意冷

Upset. With the happenings at the workplace. With myself. It's so hard.. why, God, why? Am I placed in that place? Why?? I can't do it anymore. I can't pull through 2 more years. Is it Your will for me to stay? Or leave? I cannot let "the simplest part of my life" affect me now. But it is.. 我, 心灰意冷了。